The days

Yesterday and today

Yes I understand that that is the title of a Jap Song. Not that it has any relevance, but I just find it a fitting title for this entry. There have been quite alot of ups and downs in my life lately but seems like I am tiding through it pretty well. I thank all the people around me, my friends for everything.

I came back slightly short of twelve last night and got a sms from peiting. Qiu Juan was online talking to me and so was guojun. Wong was talking about how friendships fade and I was telling him that when he starts studying in Germany, he will see things getting alot worse.Yuwen, on the other hand was running to me for help, claiming her fears for the challenges in the year ahead. I then start to think, friends do make your life beautiful. Think of all the times there is someone for you to reach out to for emotional comfort. It will be scary to have no one there. I am lucky.

I had a good start for the morning, and went for brunch with `rain. Went to cosy corner at coro and visited several memory checkpoints from JC days. I said "time flies", and true it is. It has been four years since first 3 months, 4 yrs since I know her. Its amazing how our friendship have developed to this present stage. Its beautiful, yet scary. Scary because no one can ever be too sure how things will change.

"Try as we might, things may never be the same as it is today" how true...

Then evening came with some light shower which soon developed into quite a heavy rain. Peiting was asking for my address in order to mail me something. I though it was quite dumb so we ended up meeting for dinner instead. I must say I am really touched. It was really nice of her to draw a bday card with my name made in the form of a star. I was taken aback. Honestly, we have not been close these days. Maybe the recent christmas party at judy's house reminded us that four years back, we were very good friends. And so I wonder, what will it be like four years from now. Will someone I treasure so dearly today be yet another "long time friend"?

~Interval shower and thinking~
"Life is too short to brood over all this, live for the moment and be happy"
"I think it depends on whether there is effort put in"
"Maybe its a second chance"

Yeah, it is true that I have seen friendship strengthening over the past four years. It is no proof, or so I hope, that this is the peak. That this bond will soon deteriorate. On the other hand, it is hardly any edvidence that in time to come, this friendship will become even stronger. I believe its up to the individual to keep it going and growing.

Maybe it is just human nature that we soon forget those whom we held by closely as our soul mates. That friends drift apart eventually due to social constrains. Even married couples can break up. Siblings...well, thats quite close to forever. But, are we gonna give in? I think the memories that we once share with our dear is a good reason for us NOT to give in and fight fiercely for relations to last as long as possible.

Five years back, who was so inseperable from you you said you will be friends forever. How is it now?

posted by zente @ 3:43 AM